Ten years ago, I was married to my high school sweetheart while waiting for him to finish his tour in the Navy, studying animal science in college, and working at the LSU Vet School. If you would have asked me about my vision for my life a decade later, my answer would have been married and working. If you would have told me that I’d be here, I would have laughed. Hysterically.
Why would I have laughed? No clue. It wasn’t as if I had to prove anything to anyone. I grew up in a family where my mom worked at home. There were years that she worked at school and then those that my parents owned the local community store and she worked all day….but I remember her putting most of her efforts into our home and family. So why did I not see myself doing the same? I seriously cannot explain it.
Now, looking back, I laugh. How silly I was to think that I had it all figured out. Ten years later, not much truly is; But the core values are. God. Husband. Family. Serve.
This year, as I was working on my PowerSheets, I was trying to think about my purpose, my calling. Over the last few years I know He has been using be to raise children to love and glorify him but was that my only job? Photography has been a large part of me after I left the veterinary medicine world. But part of me felt I was supposed to stop. After some early mornings and tears and prayers and a lot of time in the word, I finally got an answer. I wasn’t supposed to stop photography but I was to focus.
If you’ve noticed, weddings have been taken off of my website. In this season of life, they were becoming more stressful than enjoyable. That meant that I wouldn’t be able to best serve my clients. Instead, I was focusing more on families and motherhood.
I clearly heard my prayers answered; I was to focus on serving mothers through photography and words.
So where does that leave me now? Encouraging and capturing motherhood. And I’m soooooooo excited about it. What’s the plan? Currently, I’ve been focusing on family imagery and writing; along with serving with Mother to Mother at church and serving my own family.
This year for The Chapel’s Women Conference, the amazing Susie Larson spoke. After hearing her, I added her books to my library list. The first one that I read was Your Beautiful Purpose : Discovering and Enjoying What God Can Do Through You.
“Lord, I trusted You and found You trustworthy. I now know that when You ask me to wait it’s because You’re making me ready. You had to remove from me the very things the enemy would have used against me. Your ways are always motivated by love. I embrace contentment because You are always my safest place. My refuge.” -Susie Larson, Your Beautiful Purpose
I am not the same person I was 10 years ago.
Motherhood has changed me. God used motherhood to change me. Marriage, a son, a miscarriage, and another son. Those experiences have changed me. Those experiences have bettered me. They’ve also made room for God to speak to me and give me purpose. They’ve made my find my calling.